I Have Learned

I have learned that life isn’t easy for any of us. Every single person I meet is struggling. I have learned that if I can’t help lessen someone’s pain, I will try my best not to let anyone increase it too. I have learned that once in a while, I will lose everything. Even the will to carry on living. And only if I don’t give up then, will I be able to honour the gift of life. I have learned that it’s okay to be angry, but it’s never okay to be cruel.  I have learned that, it’s okay to be sad. But it is never okay to let sadness take control of my life. I have learned that even if I am suffering at the moment, even if I don’t know why I have to go through all this, there will be a day when all this will end. After all nothing lasts forever, not even our lives.

I have learned that death is hard, for the one who left us, and even harder for those left behind. I have learned that losing someone is like losing a body part. Even after we are treated, there will be a wound. I have learned that in the end, every wound will heal but there will always be a scar to remind us of it all. I have learned that eventually I will be able to live with the scar. I have learned that there will be a time in everyone’s life, when they’ll lose everything. From friends to family. And it’s then that we’ll have to close our eyes and keep moving, because in the end those who love us will always come back, and those who don’t, will not. I have learned that after someone saves my life, I owe it to them. No matter what.

I have learned that every single person who makes me cry is going to pay for it, i don’t have to worry about it. I don’t have to punish them. I don’t have the right to do that. I have learned that no matter how sad I am, I should always keep it in mind that it is no ones duty to cheer me up or to take care of me. And those who cheer me up, do it out of their love for me not out of any obligation. I have learned that everything will be okay in the end.

I have learned that I have a long life ahead, and I have a lot more to learn.

The Candle Speaks

'Don't be sad when people remember you only when they need you, you are like a candle in their darkness'

But how true is this statement? How are we as humans supposed to totally ignore the fact that no matter how much love we give, at the end of the day we are going to be alone? How are we supposed to not cry till we have no tears left and howl till our throat hurts, when this seems to be the only way to survive?

We as humans are wired in a way that when we give love we expect it back. That's what makes us human, the want to be loved or rather the need to be loved. When we love someone, when we do something for them, the least we want is to be noticed. For that person to acknowledge the fact that yes we did something for them. Now don't get me wrong here, but in the end when it comes to love we are all selfish. When we give love we expect it back. As we need air and water to survive, we also need love. And we want, we need to be loved by every single person who matters in our life, friends family everyone. Even if one of them doesn't love you back you feel hurt, it pains you to think that you did so much for them but in the end you don't matter to them, not even a bit. So imagine how much it would hurt when it is not one person, instead it is almost every significant person in your life.

And trust me, when this happens you don't think of these quotes and you definitely don't think of candles and darkness. You are devastated. Because those whom you thought the world of, forgot you.